This morning when I woke up I was faced with a choice. Although I undeniably love you I had to decide if I could be in a relationship with you or not. You’re an amazing person, and the time we’ve spent together was easily some of the happiest moments I’ve had in quite some time… But there were also some of the worst. You have a lot of problems that you need to sort out. I made a list of pros and cons and they come up equal, so I burnt the silly list. I needed to find something to either make or break us. I realise that what I did to help me make this decision was probably not the best choice, as it’s an invasion of your privacy and a distrusting, but I went through your phone and had a look at your messages.
What I found from this was that you’d been leading on at least two others girls, as that was as far back in your inbox as I wanted to venture.
You say you love me, but it seems that you say that quite alot. There was nothing exclusive to it. Nothing special about it. Just empty words that you shared around.
It hurt. A lot. I spent all morning trying to figure out what to say to you, and I settled on the decision to not say anything at all.
I’ll let you have your life. I just refuse to share it as much as you supposedly wanted.
I did love you, but as soon as post this entry I will block any form of feelings towards you. I’m not letting myself get hurt any more than I already have.
You’re an amazing person and id love for us to remain friends.
